jealousy of me

i look back 
and i feel jealous of myself
is that possible,
to be jealous of yourself? 
i wonder if i will ever be as good
or bad
as i was then
the frightening thought that you will never be who you were
yesterday 
at 3 o'clock
last year
when you were six
i have changed
for better or worse
yet i am still jealous of 
who 
i 
was